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Lady Satsuki gets mad at McDonalds

*Looks at how many notes this has and cries.*

Smoke break Satsuki.

Satsuki ain’t take your shit.

Satsuki ain’t take your shit.

Getting fit, it’s weird.  I used to hate my body; now I barely recognize it.

January measurements: 38-32-42.
June measurements: 37-27-37.

Getting fit, it’s weird. I used to hate my body; now I barely recognize it.

January measurements: 38-32-42.
June measurements: 37-27-37.

Hey.

I’m recovering from quite a bit.  My abuser left me on Valentine’s Day.  I didn’t realize that I was in an abusive relationship until months of therapy, medication, and horrifying realizations that I normalized behavior that was really fucked up. 

Since then, I’ve tumbled through Depression, Panic Disorder, Social Anxiety, Stockholm Syndrome, and coincidentally—Battered Person Syndrome.  And that’s where I’m at now.

I’m gonna keep a blog lining out the details of my abuse.  I just need to talk about it, openly.  I was quiet for four years.  I don’t want to be quiet anymore.

Nights are the hardest, and there are always triggers that remind me of the abuse.  Because of this, I’m going to write a blog about it.  All of it.  Any time I feel the need to.

If you want the URL to this blog, message me.  I do not want my abuser to find this blog.

This is stupid, please ignore it.

This is stupid, please ignore it.

Hi.

I’ve been gone for a long time due to dealing with recently leaving an abusive relationship, being suicidal, having Massive Depressive Disorder and Panic Disorder.

I miss ya’ll, but I gotta live each day with all I got, and there’s just no time for tumblr.  I will return to the land of blogs soon.

Alpaca Queen.
My true form.

Alpaca Queen.

My true form.

I’m a cute little Rigby.

I’m a cute little Rigby.

General Life Update! 
I’m an unemployed college graduate, just like I always wanted!  But a couple good things are happening.
I was accepted into the Women in Games International mentorship program where I will work under a mentor who will help me secure my first game job.
My request for volunteering for Women in Games International was accepted, and I will be helping to host networking events in LA for game developers!  (As soon as I get back to LA.)
Both of these things are giving me some awesome contacts and confidence with getting that first game art job, and I actually believe it will happen!
I’ve gotten a lot of sweet compliments on my new website.
The bum shit is that Los Angeles is perhaps the hardest place to convince a landlord that you and your corgi are not there to completely destroy their building.
Picture of me, sort of reflects feelings about the situation.

General Life Update! 

I’m an unemployed college graduate, just like I always wanted!  But a couple good things are happening.

  • I was accepted into the Women in Games International mentorship program where I will work under a mentor who will help me secure my first game job.
  • My request for volunteering for Women in Games International was accepted, and I will be helping to host networking events in LA for game developers!  (As soon as I get back to LA.)
  • Both of these things are giving me some awesome contacts and confidence with getting that first game art job, and I actually believe it will happen!
  • I’ve gotten a lot of sweet compliments on my new website.

The bum shit is that Los Angeles is perhaps the hardest place to convince a landlord that you and your corgi are not there to completely destroy their building.

Picture of me, sort of reflects feelings about the situation.